Todae TPJC Road run( a.k.a. cross country)........morn weather fine, got lost while in willis' dad car.....hahaz.......wen reached had to wait for bout 1 hr b4 JC1 boys start...... SIANZ......wen come our turn, all chiong, mistake for me to chiong so early, bad part of run, no water point, gud thing bout run, only 3KM...... but it did not seem as short as the number 3.....last stretch i chionged, but realised chiong too early, end up force myself to dash through finishing line, den p.e. teacher sae no need chiong.......wth...... position 215/ 300-400+ i think, hahaz.......JC alot of dam fast runners sia, hahaz.....slacked too much during holidaes, hahaz...... after run go eat lunch with class mates, all walk to fast food area dunnoe exactly where..........wanted to eat at subway, realise no aircon, so off to Mac!!! hahaz.......eat eat eat, chit chat chit chat...... den go off, take bus back to tampines interchange, sum of them folo me take bus 3 go TPJC for cca, i go home cuz no cca(DUH)......hahaz...... den play guitar n piano, den sleep till America's Funniest Home Videos show on TV, hahaz...... watch till bout 9, den use com lor, hahaz......... now is hope for gud 2 more daes of the week, n i beta chiong as many tutorials as i can while still got time, hahaz.........
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Friday, February 20, 2009
Camp's over, enjoyed myself, and i have to make another STATEMENT, n this time i wun even entertain replies...im sry
I feel no more connection between me n 4/8.....all my friends, all those memories.....i feel nothing bout them any more......look at the way u guys treat people like me, like no one, like we weren't even there.......im just like another outsider to ur even in class outings...... i can conclude that we have nothing in common from the start......my heart lies in sumwhere else now, partly in TPJC....partly in sumwhere else i refuse to tell anyone........not one bit in PRCS 4/8.....4/8, u guys nvr treat anyone as equally, u guys treat me like sum piece of junk....... u guys aren't juz as enthu as i thought u guys were...... u guys hardly look optimistic.... for every single person in 4/8, even to the people i hardly talk to, i have loads of stuff i can scream shout at ur face, i chose not to, u shud be thankful.........u guys aren't even as open-minded, u guys make me feel inferior....u shud noe tat, i try to treat everyone the same, but i get nthn out of it nor anything in return, u guys show ur concern for me which i dun even have the full 100% confidence in whatever u guys sae........i nvr feel assured by anything u guys sae to me....... u guys can nvr understand me......go on and compare me to u guys..... there is very much little in common between us.........so from now on, its over being 4/8 forever and crap, if u need to relate anything to me, im purely n solely juz a friend out there.....maybe even a total stranger to sum of u...... now wen u guys plan any outing, go ahead n not invite me, by all means, call me a loner, sum idiot and wadeva, look at it this way, even if u guys call me out, how often do i chat with ur about sumthing i actually noe between us.......u can come and sae that its because during conversation topics always change n sumtimes u guys also noe nthn bout it, look back at the times where i have been out with u guys, truthfully, how many times have the topic swicthed to sumthing which i actually have sumthing in common with u guys to tok about? HUH?!?! at least my new classmates make an effort to get to noe me better by toking bout common stuff we all have.......how many times have u guys from 4/8 excluding those i've known for a VERY VERY long time actually make an effort to get to noe me better? i think NOT EVEN ONCE......For u guys, i m already being nice for not even criticising u, so dun push ur luk.....
So remember this, from now on, im only purely a friend to people from 4/8, i maybe a 4/8er, but u guys make me feel like im not one.....so y go on being one? i've holded onto all these issues for far too long, n its about time i address it properly...... that shud be the end of wadeva i needed to sae, n one BIG reminder: ANYONE ELSE READING THIS POST, I DUN WANA RAKE UP THE UNHAPPY PAST, SO DUN ASK ME ANYTHING ABOUT IT IF WE EVER MEET, I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT....... THANKS........n i really apologise if i have offended anyone of u guys, by all means, write a post bout me if u want to, call me a jerk, a freak, an asshole.....wadeva u want, i dun care, i really neede to let u guys noe how i really feel......
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Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Hahaz........UNO.......now tats stuck in my head......
Todae last dae for lessons for 09S27......for da week....... WOOTS...... camp starts 2morow, im ALMOST done packing, hahaz.........Neway, pretty stupid todae......during break only think of one thing..... UNO......... after chinese.... UNO........its been an UNO dae..........LOLX.......Come to even think about it, hu noes tat if got campfire, 09S27 may even be playing around fire, hahaz..........we go all over skul plae UNO, play like gambling like tat....... Den Sean n Lionel had to be funny...... we borrowed monopoly, but played UNO first, wen giving out cards lionel and sean took out monopoly money n started playing scissors paper stone: winner get money........Joseph was super suay todae, tio total of +18, lionel was pissed cuz we skipped 4 of his turns str8, MingJun made alot of mistakes, kena +10 and +12 in one game, hahaz...... in all we had fun, hahaz....... 09S27 start ur engines!!!!! Orientation Camp is about to start, alll muz try be as enthu as possible ar!!!!! hahahahaz...........CYA GUYS!
A dedication from me to 09S27!!!!!
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Sunday, February 15, 2009
Okz, felt alot much beta after yesterdae's post........ anyways...... this week, TPJC CAMP WEEK!! hope to get to noe my classmates beta....... hahaz.... n finally a male dominated class.....hahaz.......Jun Yan was telling tat his class was female dominated, n camp dance each guy lucky can dance with 3 girl partners..... LOL....hahaz......... then again......hu noes that there mite be sum unexpected things........JKJK....hahaz.......
From the five of us, i had to be the odd one out..........sianz............pang sei kias........jkjk....hahaz.......neway thx Jun Yan for recommending me to read Lilim Kiss..... hahaz..........very stupid n nice, hahaz........Now waiting for naruto manga 436, then next week's naruto shippuden 97....... n SIANZ, I STILL CANT FIND A SHIKAMAURU PLUSHY..........
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Saturday, February 14, 2009
Im apologising to every single person i know rite here rite now in advance......especially to the people whom i talked to todae........i have to clarify all these things rite now...... its time to end my misery.......
"A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed"...... i always liked this line....... I treasure every single friendship, every friend that i made........ i will always remember them for life....... even the slightest jerk, b****, n wadeva...... the line of names can go on forever..... but no matter how i hate them, as long as we're friends, i will still remember you, we go through ups and downs in life together as one..........im the happy go lucky self because of u my friends......... u made it all possible for me to be who i am todae........... but to actually curse or swear at them by myself, DO ANY OF U GUYS OUT THERE NOE WAT IT FEELS LIKE TO EVEN CALL UR CLOSEST FRIEND(S) A JERK OR A BITCH????? IT HURTS ME TO THE CORE!!!!!!!! even if im friends with sumone for a short while, i m still a friend of him/her u noe???? yes i may hate sum of my friends with attitude problems, for the faces, for how they look, for how they act n for what they always sae, but they are still my friends!!!!!!! If u guys cant take the fact like that, go ahead do what u want, delete my msn address, delete my hp number, spit at me in the face, OR even curse at me with all the vulgarities u got........LIKE I WILL CARE ABOUT WHAT U GUYS WILL DO TO ME........all the more i will be hurt even more, to lose one more friend, its like the end of the world to me..........every nite i go to bed with guilt and regret.......nvr have i ever slept in peace since last year..........u may forget me, but i will nvr forget a dear friend..... n there is nthn u can do to make me forget about u guys.........
U may have heard me sae this a million times to a question- why u so quiet? " if i got nthn good to sae, then dun sae anything at all".......... i really mean it man......... i have to nthn to talk about, u can scream shout at me, u can talk to me about anything, im just glad to lend listening ear to any of ur troubles....... so tat doesnt mean im isolatng myself from any of u......... u can always ask me for my opinion, n mine may not always be the best.......im not forcing u to do what i tell u, im juz trying to help u in the best way that i can...........U HAVE TO KEEP IN MIND THAT I ALSO HAVE TO TOLERATE WADEVA U SAE...... SO SPARE MY FEELINGS TOO
Now then, BGR........... im no expert in this.......... i have crushes........ N ITS NOT SURPRISING, if u think it is, i dun think u dun belong to earth.......im a human too u noe? and i got feelings too...........i have crushes even on sum of my closest friends( im talking bout girls here, im not gay).....yea sure, call me a coward, anything u want, i may not have the courage to tell any of them about my feelings, but i try to do my best in making them happy,even if it means helping them noe sumone else better, so what if they dun like me, its not like its the end of the world to me..........if u have any thoughts or opinions..... KEEP THEM TO URSELF...........i wont entertain any nonsense..............im aready on the brink of exploding(i mean blowing my top), by doing this i wud have relieved sum of my anger........ Jamming on my electric guitar is the only way i can clear my thoughts..........thats y im hardly online these daes, im juz lookin for songs to plae or master on guitar or piano............
that shud at least do to make me more relaxed........... once again im really sry if the above para's have offended any of u............. from the bottom of my heart i really am sry........ so plz understand me if i refuse to answer any questions..........
Digressing abit, for all those i noe that are interested in learning guitar....... i finish skul usually at 1pm-1.30PM,i have cca's on wednesdays and fridays....so not on these days will do......im open to teach on my free weekdays till 5.30PM only,sat only on morns, sun on afternoons b4 dinner, so if u want any lessons, plz confirm with me bout dates and timing... u dun nid a guitar to learn, juz share mine can, of course it wud be better if u have one working one n in gud condition....hahaz........if u wan to learn certain things in details, then tell me, or if any songs u wana learn how to plae on guitar.........hahaz....... i can teach piano too, if u really despo to learn, i may not be that gud or accurate, but i still can plae, hahaz......i will make an effort to make sure u can learn as much as possible......
So once again, im dreadfully sry....... and please forgive me for wadeva i have done..................
I NEVER WANA LOSE A FRIEND EVER AGAIN.......NOT EVEN IF I ONLY KNOW THEM FOR THE SHORTEST OF WHILES..........
Music played at 8:21 PM
Monday, February 2, 2009
ZQ tagged me for that itunes test thingy, but no time do it todae, prob will do it 2morow, hahaz........
ANYWAYS..... cool, first dae of college years............dunnoe y, dam excited to go jc, but to lazy to get out of bed, hahaz........ get up do morning routines, den go out, THIS TIME ROUND, IM TAKING THE BUS, hahaz.... no more cycling, now taking same bus as sis...... SIAN....... so took bus met up with jun yan n jess, i live nearest to tpjc, yet i latest to reach, DANG U BUS 3.....hahaz........... so we went into tpjc....... new life, hahaz..... guess the first place we visited?????.........CANTEEN!!!!!! hahaz, n they got JAP food, hahaz...... im hungry for it........hahaz.......... den go hall assemble, n OMG, nthn new here.... singing national anthem again.... den orientation starts........ meet OGL's, one of them happen to be my sec school senior, hahaz..... had long intro tok, den icebreakers, quite funny though, hahaz, have to sae, i was the only prcs student in my OG out of 40 OGs, AM I UNLUCKY OR WHAT??? hahaz..... btw, OG = Orientation Group......... during break chit chat, then SIAN... den chit chat during lunch n eat, DEN SIAN.... then go home ler lor.... neway, met two old primary school friends, deja vu there... hahaz....... n that shud be all, hahaz..... about the same as any every first jc 1 dae, hahaz........ SIGNING OFF!!!!
