Im apologising to every single person i know rite here rite now in advance......especially to the people whom i talked to todae........i have to clarify all these things rite now...... its time to end my misery.......

"A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed"...... i always liked this line....... I treasure every single friendship, every friend that i made........ i will always remember them for life....... even the slightest jerk, b****, n wadeva...... the line of names can go on forever..... but no matter how i hate them, as long as we're friends, i will still remember you, we go through ups and downs in life together as one..........im the happy go lucky self because of u my friends......... u made it all possible for me to be who i am todae........... but to actually curse or swear at them by myself, DO ANY OF U GUYS OUT THERE NOE WAT IT FEELS LIKE TO EVEN CALL UR CLOSEST FRIEND(S) A JERK OR A BITCH????? IT HURTS ME TO THE CORE!!!!!!!! even if im friends with sumone for a short while, i m still a friend of him/her u noe???? yes i may hate sum of my friends with attitude problems, for the faces, for how they look, for how they act n for what they always sae, but they are still my friends!!!!!!! If u guys cant take the fact like that, go ahead do what u want, delete my msn address, delete my hp number, spit at me in the face, OR even curse at me with all the vulgarities u got........LIKE I WILL CARE ABOUT WHAT U GUYS WILL DO TO ME........all the more i will be hurt even more, to lose one more friend, its like the end of the world to me..........every nite i go to bed with guilt and regret.......nvr have i ever slept in peace since last year..........u may forget me, but i will nvr forget a dear friend..... n there is nthn u can do to make me forget about u guys.........

U may have heard me sae this a million times to a question- why u so quiet? " if i got nthn good to sae, then dun sae anything at all".......... i really mean it man......... i have to nthn to talk about, u can scream shout at me, u can talk to me about anything, im just glad to lend listening ear to any of ur troubles....... so tat doesnt mean im isolatng myself from any of u......... u can always ask me for my opinion, n mine may not always be the best.......im not forcing u to do what i tell u, im juz trying to help u in the best way that i can...........U HAVE TO KEEP IN MIND THAT I ALSO HAVE TO TOLERATE WADEVA U SAE...... SO SPARE MY FEELINGS TOO

Now then, BGR........... im no expert in this.......... i have crushes........ N ITS NOT SURPRISING, if u think it is, i dun think u dun belong to earth.......im a human too u noe? and i got feelings too...........i have crushes even on sum of my closest friends( im talking bout girls here, im not gay).....yea sure, call me a coward, anything u want, i may not have the courage to tell any of them about my feelings, but i try to do my best in making them happy,even if it means helping them noe sumone else better, so what if they dun like me, its not like its the end of the world to me..........if u have any thoughts or opinions..... KEEP THEM TO URSELF...........i wont entertain any nonsense..............im aready on the brink of exploding(i mean blowing my top), by doing this i wud have relieved sum of my anger........ Jamming on my electric guitar is the only way i can clear my thoughts..........thats y im hardly online these daes, im juz lookin for songs to plae or master on guitar or piano............

that shud at least do to make me more relaxed........... once again im really sry if the above para's have offended any of u............. from the bottom of my heart i really am sry........ so plz understand me if i refuse to answer any questions..........

Digressing abit, for all those i noe that are interested in learning guitar....... i finish skul usually at 1pm-1.30PM,i have cca's on wednesdays and fridays....so not on these days will do......im open to teach on my free weekdays till 5.30PM only,sat only on morns, sun on afternoons b4 dinner, so if u want any lessons, plz confirm with me bout dates and timing... u dun nid a guitar to learn, juz share mine can, of course it wud be better if u have one working one n in gud condition....hahaz........if u wan to learn certain things in details, then tell me, or if any songs u wana learn how to plae on guitar.........hahaz....... i can teach piano too, if u really despo to learn, i may not be that gud or accurate, but i still can plae, hahaz......i will make an effort to make sure u can learn as much as possible......

So once again, im dreadfully sry....... and please forgive me for wadeva i have done..................

I NEVER WANA LOSE A FRIEND EVER AGAIN.......NOT EVEN IF I ONLY KNOW THEM FOR THE SHORTEST OF WHILES..........